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I despise the left wing liberal attempts to change America. I support FREEDOM, freedom of speech, right to bear arms, religious freedom and protecting the rights of Americans, including the unborn. Close the border, round up illegals and send them home. Welcome them back with a green card. I believe in preserving the visions of our founding fathers which did not include Socialism or Sharia Law. This IS STILL America.....at least for now.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

It is all about God!

I am changing up my post this week to share with you my faith. You are not forced to read it. You can close the page and be done. I hope you won't.

I do not intend to debate my faith. I am only going to share it with those who choose to read it.

My life was like any other Mom's. Hectic, full calendars...dinner in time to get the kids in bed at a decent time for the following school day. I plugged along in my life without any real disasters. My Father and I were never very close. We had, at best, a turbulent relationship. My parents divorced when I was very young so I really never grew up with him. He was mean at times....very. A time or two in my life I remember him being nice for a minute. He was mentally ill. He was an addict. His addictions changed...from alcohol, to food. He grew to be an enormous sized man....some 500+ pounds at last check. Still, when he had nobody....I took him in. He was totally bedridden. Not able to walk....even to the bathroom. I took control of his food...and he lost down to 286 pounds. HE COULD WALK AGAIN! And walk he did....right to the refridgerator. Gained it all back...and we decided a nursing home was our only option. He was so big that just having him in the house was a dangerous situation for him. If there had been a fire.....we could never have gotten him out. He died April 6, 2001. Just a month before my youngest daughter was born. It hurt me....because we never connected. We never had one of those moments where I knew he loved me. I prayed that he was finally at peace.

A month later my baby comes....and then each year for three years my oldest daughter presented me with grandchildren. Life was hectic...and good.

My Mom and I were very close. She had major health problems...and in the summer of 2000 she came to live with me. The doctors had decided she could never live on her own and had suggested a nursing home. No way. We went to rehab three times a week...sometimes twice in a day. Hectic took on a whole new meaning for me. She had to learn to talk again.....learn to count money, and even make simple glass of water. She did it though. She had determination like I have never seen before.

She eventually moved back home to live indpendently...and her visits to us were once or twice a year. Though we talked everyday...either by phone or instant message. Her health was holding steady for a while...and then I could hear a change in her voice. She began having episodes that put her in the hospital....and she was losing her strength. Still, she came to visit...but at the airport...when I saw her....I was totally not prepared to SEE such a decline in her health. I remember as we were leaving the parking lot of the airport...it hit me. SHE WAS GOING TO DIE. I even had this overwhelming feeling that she would die during her visit....which she did.

My world came crashing down. Nothing made sense anymore...everything I had thought I knew about life...suddenly I understood that I knew nothing. I was angry with God. I wanted my Mother back. She deserved so much more than she had in life....her life was very hard.

As a child, I was raised between church of Christ and Baptist. Depending on which Grandmother had me that weekend. They shared some basic beliefs...but as an adult, I stayed with church of Christ. Now..my mother is gone...and everything I had learned about our Savior was gone too. After getting past my anger, I had to ask for forgiveness. When I say I was angry with God, that is an understatement. So I renewed my relationship with the Lord and sought understanding. I used prayer, my Bible, the internet...television....everything I could to find what I felt God wanted me to know.

I will see my Mom again. That was the first thing I came to understand. Armed with that knowledge, I found peace to continue my quest for knowledge.

I have come to believe that none of the churches really have it right. Although, I tend to lean more toward the church of God. Even within that "denomination" there are many contradicting beliefs. Is the Sabbath Saturday or Sonday. There are scriptures to support both. Still there is only one right way.

I am no longer sure that I believe there will be a rapture...though I would like there to be one. That being said, I am armed and ready to endure what I must for the Lord. I do believe we are seeing prophesy fulfilled at warp speed. Glenn Beck always says keep a diary, we are living in increbible times. I agree...but for more than his reason. I find prophesy very comforting, even though prophesy is not a pretty picture. It confirms my faith in God. I do not need prophesy to confirm it....but it is just amazing to see it come to be. What is sad is seeing people turn from God. Seeing our great nation turn into a "if it feels good, do it" nation. It hurts me to know that some 3500 human lives are taken each day before they can even begin. We have turned from God. Plain and simple.

Sometimes I am afraid but then I remember...the Lord says not to be afraid. When you realize that at the end of this long journey....Jesus returns, nothing seems so bad anymore. To be a part of a generation who could possibly be alive to see the return....is absolutely amazing. I may not make it, but I really believe my children could.

I truly believe that God is a loving God. I have tossed my hellfire and brimstone fears...and I know that God will never condemn anyone to hell that lived and never even heard the name Jesus, or the teenager who died before accepting Christ. I do not believe that God will condemn us to hell to burn forever....but rather the lake of fire is nothing more than the final death....the forever death. The thought of a final death does not feel much better than the thought of a lake of fire. If you have been shown the way to salvation and reject it, well...I honestly do not know if you get another chance. Time will tell.

Throughout my life I used to joke that God and I were going to have to have a discussion about the oceans being no more. The ocean is my favorite place on earth. I never could understand why? In my searches....I came to believe that almost everyone will get a second chance to accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior. If almost everyone who ever lives is resurrected to live again and be given the chance to know God.....I now understand why the oceans will be no more.

The sad part is that even being given a second chance...many will reject him. It just blows my mind.

Many Christians may read this and disagree with what I believe. That is not important. What is important is that we accept Christ. That you believe he dies on the cross for your sins. That is the very basic belief that will begin to save us. From there we must try to emulate Jesus. We will never do it....it is the effort that we are graded on.

The reality is...that so much of God's word is diluted by man...and most of us are not fully aware of how to do everything God wants us to do. Thankfully, Jesus will show us.

If you have not been saved....and would like to be....you can say a simple prayer...and ask Jesus to come into your heart and forgive you of your sins. You can be in your pajamas, or in a suit. It does not matter. What matters is that you are sincere.

"Dear God I know I'm a sinner, I know I am not where I want to be, and I want your forgiveness! I believe that Jesus died on the cross to pay the price for my sins.

Please wash me clean from all sin, shame, and guilt, come into my life Jesus to be my Lord and Savior. I ask this in your name Jesus.


Either dust off your Bible or go buy one. Start reading. I suggest reading the Gospel of John first....then the old Testament followed by the New Testament. Surround yourself with people who are Christians. Find a church where you are comfortable and continue to read the Bible daily. You may find yourself changing churches a time or two as you grow in your faith. When I would see that a church said it was their way or burn in hell forever....I was usually outta there FAST!

I find it totally unimportant to get caught up in the pomp and circumstance of churches. What I find important is that they have the basics right. What are the basics? I believe the basics are The Ten Commandments and knowing that God sent his only son to die for your sins.

God bless you and if you are still reading this....THANK YOU!

Below you will find a link to my favorite website. I use this to look at scripture in all the different versions of the Bible. It helps me when I am looking for meaning. Some Bibles are easier to read.....and understand. I do prefer the King James Version and the New American Standard Bible. I hear rumor the New American Standard will soon go out of print. I suspect that rumor to be true because Barnes and Noble told me they are getting hard to find. Why? Well, that could be another entire topic...lol


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