I never knew it was humanly possible to eat this much. At this rate I will be a thousand pounds by Christmas. I have to start doing more excercise....but I gotta tell you I am not sure I could excercise enough to keep me thin at this point. Not smoking has made me ravenous. I have decided that tomorrow...I am going to start excercising. No way around it. Kegel excercises are going to be where I start. Gotta start somewhere, right?
Now....I gotta tell you all...I LOVE Sarah Palin. She is the perfect VP pick for McCain. I hope she woo's all the women and those undecided.....and brings them to the Republican side.
Obama scares me. He scares me a lot.
- United States
- I despise the left wing liberal attempts to change America. I support FREEDOM, freedom of speech, right to bear arms, religious freedom and protecting the rights of Americans, including the unborn. Close the border, round up illegals and send them home. Welcome them back with a green card. I believe in preserving the visions of our founding fathers which did not include Socialism or Sharia Law. This IS STILL America.....at least for now.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
I can say with 100% certainty that I have the strength not to let John come back again. Wish I could say the same about smoking. That being said, it is has still been three days since I had a cigarette. I am determined not to smoke. I don't want to be a smoker anymore. What scares me though, is that I will get FAT. I don't want to be fat. I am going to keep not smoking and try to increase my activity. We shall see how it goes. All I know is that I want to live for my kids. I have told myself that if I still want a cigarette after they are grown, independent and succesful....then I can have one. Until then...no smoking. I thought I would try Yoga to help me with not smoking and the stress etc......soooooo...I bought a Yoga DVD. Everything was great...until they had this position where you stand....and with your right hand....hold your right leg up behind your butt. That went well...then you had to stretch your left arm into the air and stretch your whole body using that left arm as a point to follow......well.....when you stretch your left arm.....it stretches the muscles in your right leg.....and.......PAIN. I got the charlie horse from hell......lol. I said some not so nice things.....without taking the Lord's name in vain.....but let me tell you...it would have made a sailor blush. I could not believe the pain....and the more time that went by for about two full minutes....the more it hurt....worse and worse...and then slowly subsided. It hurt so damn bad I could not even scream...lol. I opted to turn off the DVD....and skip not only doing the same stretch with my left leg....but I skipped the rest of the entire workout. You think...or at least I thought...that a wimpy, out of shape ex-smoker.....could do something as simple as Yoga. Whatever! I am seriously considering getting my daughters Elmo excercise tape and working out to that. Now...if I can't do that....maybe I should get some cigarettes...lol. Soooo....I am kicking all my bad habits.....even Yoga.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I am just miserable today. Kicked John out yesterday, quit smoking yesterday, and no job. The world is out of control...Russia flexing their muscles....Ahmindenijad is the the lunatic from hell....and both would love to see the USA gone. People are celebrating gas prices of 3.70 a gallon. Food prices are sky rocketing. What a world we live in! I miss my Mom....I want a cigarette....and if someone looked at me cross eyed today I would just cry like a baby.